Sorry about that.
I've been really disenfranchised, and irritated with my life in general lately. And angry and pissed off at things both in real life, online in various places, as well as frustrated and downtrodden.
It was childish of me to even post that, but I was going through a momentary fit of "whatever, it doesn't matter what I do, no one cares".
I feel mellower, although not that i've changed my mind about how I feel. But some kind words from a friend has me feeling not as bitter at the moment.
I apologize for this stupid thread.